There out to get me!

Did you ever feel like everyone was out to get you? Not because you are paranoid, but because it seems that on the same day several people just decide that it is "shit on you day." That happened to me yesterday and I was so pissed off by the time I left work that all I wanted to do was feel like someone new how I was feeling and really felt it with me. I kept my cool at work because I am the every loving and sweet person there. When I got in my car I was trying to find my old staple "I'm in a rage" song, Pantera's "Fucking Hostile" which I think is pretty self expanatory. I couldn't find it, so I opted for the next best thing: Guns N' Roses' "Out Ta Get Me." It brought back memories of mostly bad days in my teenage years, but some of the best days of my life too. You see I have an ex-stepmother who treated me like garbage and ruined my life way into adulthood by the things she did and the lasting scars it left on me. I used to listen to the whole Appetite for Destruction tape and especially the song "Out Ta Get Me" as my refuge and way to cope. Even way back then when I was 13 or 14 it really helped me feel that at least someone, somewhere (Axl Rose) understood exactly what I was going through. Of course I had to hide that tape from my stepmother at the time because she was one of those bible thumping lunatics that preached all the time (literally for hours, as she treated you worse than a criminal, verbally and physically, when you hadn't done anything worse then speak an opinion about something she disagreed with) and at the same time she was preaching all this, she was turning herself into a hypocrite. Now don't get me wrong, I don't mind church goers or believers in God, I am deeply spiritual, but this woman at the time really turned me off to the whole church thing, by her "lovely" examples. So my point is that the one lyric in the song that says, "They push me in a corner just to get me to fight, They preach and yell, and fight all night," really spoke to me at the time. Who would have thought Axl Rose was some young teenagers saving grace from killing herself, some folks would never believe that just reading the lyrics of all the songs, looking at the cover art, and the image of the band, but it is the truth. And to think that many church groups really raised hell over the images that album evoked. Most would have said that I would have turned out to be on drugs, with no job, and no future or morals. Now I am successful in my job and I just completed my Masters Degree, never was addicted to drugs and never had any children out of wedlock or ended up pregnant. Karma is an interesting thing, that woman who my dad divorced and I hadn't spoken to in over a decade recently got hired where I work. She has no authority over me anymore, and wanted desperately to speak to me or have a relationship with me, but I and my boss won't allow it. She has to play by my rules because I am well established at my job and she has no experience. Everyone is complaining about her, she has pissed tons of people off, and she tried to chase around and corner someone else over something she didn't like, and got reported to the boss. Ha Ha, it gives you lots to think about doesn't it?

Lyrics:
Out Ta Get Me lyrics
Been hidin' out
And layin' low
It's nothin' new ta me
Well you can always find
a place to go
If you can keep your sanity
They break down the doors
And they rape my rights but
They won't touch me
They scream and yell
And fight all night
You can't tell me
I lose my head
I close my eyes
They won't touch me
'Cause I got somethin'
I been buildin' up inside
For so fuckin' long

[CHORUS:]

They're out ta get me
They won't catch me
I'm innocent
They won't break me

Sometimes it's easy to forget where you're goin'
Sometimes it's harder to leave
And everytime you think you know just what you're doin'
That's when your troubles exceed
They push me in a corner
Just to get me to fight but
They won't touch me
They preach and yell
And fight all night
You can't tell me
I lose my head
I close my eyes
They won't touch me
'Cause I got somethin'
I been buildin' up inside
I'm already gone

[Chorus]

Some people got a chip on their shoulder
An some would say it was me
But I didn't buy that fifth of whisky
That you gave me
So I'd be quick to disagree

[Chorus]

They're out to get me
They won't catch me
I'm innocent
So you can
Suck me
Take that one to heart